Sunday, 28 November 2010

x Still feeling happy...and more shopping! x

Ive been to the cinema twice since my last post: last Sunday we saw Harry Potter which Scott got very excited about as he loves it, and this week we saw London Boulevard. They were both good films!!

In health news: Im still doing ok, my chest seems fine and my weight seems to be holding. Over the last week, I have been finding eating difficult...i am hungry but just dont know what i feel like having! I hope I find something soon as im annoying myself!! My little lungs DO NOT like this weather. Everytime I go outside, the sudden cold air and change in temperature makes me cough and sends my lungs into a little hissy fit. I still want it to snow sounds like every part of the UK has snow except us in London but it is promised for this week - yay!

I also had a family outing to the doctors for a flu jab (fun times) which i didnt even feel this year, didnt get a dead arm and didnt have any side effects...i personally think i didnt feel it as i am fatter this year so have more meat on my arms lol :) I went back down the doctors for an appointment to sort out my prescription as there are things missing off of it that should be on it and it was driving me mad. He sorted it in 5 minutes so now i have a prescription with 22 different items on it. He finally did my referral letter to get me on a fitness scheme at my gym so that I can go for cheaper because I need to go for health reasons. It means i can go whenever I want so dont have to worry too much about money as its only £11 a month. Now just have to ring the gym tomorrow to say i have the referral and will hopefully be able to start it in the new year.

Ive done all my online xmas shopping now and still have a few things to be delivered but the things that I have got, ive wrapped up all neatly. Im off to the shops next week with my friend Steph to get more pressies, cards and bits and pieces. I love buying people pressies and try to put alot of thought into them. Im so excited...its only a month away now!!!

Today was a year today since my friend Anna lost her battle with CF. It seems like ages ago and I miss talking to her everyday. We used to have such a giggle online and she was an amazing person to know.

I have a busy start to the week ahead so will update once I sit down!!

x Lots of love x

Monday, 22 November 2010

x Diabetes clinic x

I had an appointment at the diabetes clinic with Jen my dietician to have a talk about what the hell my body is doing with the insulin and we still dont really know!! As far as i can make out....I definatly have CF related diabetes because my sugars are not in the 'normal' ranges of 4-7. However, when I have been testing them they havent been drastically high - i think the highest was about 10, however, its more a case of them being low. This is not because i havent been eating...for example, after a meal at the carvery with a glass of coke, 2 hours after my sugars were only 2.7, and the other night at the start of my feed my sugars were 9.6 (after a bowl of cereal and mars bar before bed) and after my feed finished at 3am, they went down to 8.5. Even CF patients without diabetes sometimes have to take insulin with feeds but mine went down after having it?? Why is my body so bloody complicated lol!!

The result of this is an appointment in January to fit a constant blood glucose monitor. This is a small tube (like a cannula/venflon) thats put into my belly (my poor little belly is taking alot of trauma this last year lol) and will stay there for about 4 days. It has a memory in it so that it can see what my blood sugar levels are doing for 24 hours a day. I really didnt want it but it is the only way we can see a true picture of whats happening and hopefully get some answers. If diabetes is not treated, it can cause issues with putting on weight and increased chest infections - both of which i am trying to improve!!

Tuesday night was brilliant. Me and Scott went for a meal with our other couple mates Sirin and Carlton. We havent seen them in a while and ended up staying out for about 4 hours in the pub/restaurant talking about old times and really laughing. I have done alot of my shopping online these last few days and have got alot more ideas for stuff and have planned a big shopping day to Lakeside with Steph in a few weeks to get pressies and bits and bobs so cant wait!!

Friday I had a bad day - just feeling tired and coughing with a sore chest. These days always worry me but i try and think that everyone has bad days so if i just allow myself to rest and sort myself out the next day. I stayed at home all day and mum had the day off so we made my high calorie muffins. The 1st attempt went wrong and i made some mixture that strongly looked like scrambled egg so mummy chucked it in the sink...the 2nd attempt went well and even though it took me 2 and half hours from start to finish, i finaly have something that resembles muffins :D
After, I was so tired so fell asleep and then loaded up on KFC to boost my calories as i didnt do well with eating that day either. Hopefully the weekend will be a good one.

x Lots of love x

Monday, 15 November 2010

Too much going on in my head!!!

Im surronded by lists yet usual to-do list, ideas for xmas pressie list, pressies that i have brought list, what i want for xmas list....argh!!! I keep having to tell myself that i dont have to rush about for xmas as i have plenty of time, but i never know what is gonna happen in my life and i dont want to have to worry about pressies incase i do get a chest infection or anything. I know thats abit of a negative way to think but im just being realistic!! I offically started my xmas shopping on saturday evening as that was my first online purchase done - yay!! Im not going to mention what pressies i have brought people on here as i know certain people read this and i like people to be surprised :) However, any ideas as for what to buy Scott would be welcomed (just email me on facebook or something) as all he keeps going on about is a damn 3d television which is abit out of my price range thank you very much lol!!

Also sitting next to my lists is court papers. This was what greeted me when i got back from York. Im not going to go on about it as im too angry to even start speaking about it again but basically i appealled their decision to put me in the 'back to work' group as i dont need help getting work, its a case of me not being well enough to work. They are now saying that i have to go to court to take my case furthur because they believe that i am well enough to attend the meetings for the 'back to work' group. They sent me the criteria information as to who qualifys to be in the other group, and to put it bluntly, you have to be practically a vegetable! But can you tell me what the point is, of going to these meetings to help me back to work if im not well enough to go to work. They totally agree that im not well enough to work but their claim is that i am well enough to attend the meetings....please tell me what the point is in that?? Isnt that wasting mine and their time??

Tuesday i went clinic and my lung function had increased upto 24% and it WILL continue to increase!! My weight increased by 0.1kgs but we were all happy with that as i had done lots of exercise on holiday and not had too many feeds but, in the words of Tesco - every little helps :D We are still trying to sort out my diabetes as sometimes i have high blood sugars and sometimes they plummet so its too dangerous for me to have insulin at the moment until its sorted out as i dont want to end up in a diabetic coma!! Ive got to monitor my blood sugars all through-out the day until my appointment on tuesday...this results in me attempting to prick my finger about 3am when my feed finishes...great one!!

I have also now made up my mind that i strongly dislike one of my doctors even more after this clinic. When i had all the probs with my peg, she did nothing and didnt listen to me in any way, just kept throwing anti-sickness and heartburn medicine at me...and we all know now that the sickness and burn was because the tube was lodged in my bowel...anyway, i havent seen her properly since, until this clinic. She knows how nervous i am about anything to do with my peg (for obvious reasons), although i am getting better and dont check every few hours anymore to see if its still there!! She felt my stomach and was pushing over my scars, which im funny about people touching and then without warning just turned my peg all the way round really fast which pissed me off bigtime!! Then she was checking all my tablets and asked if i was still getting heartburn and if i was still on anti-sickness....erm no!!! I havent been on them since may and it wasnt fucking heartburn or reflux, it was the bastard peg many more times!!!

I also have a reciepe for muffins...not normal muffins...1000 calorie muffins!! I went out and brought all the ingredients before the weekend and then decided to make them today but realised i didnt have a muffin tin...and i still dont have a muffin tin, because i brought a yorkshire pudding tin instead. I thought they were the same but apparently not (the muffin tins are deeper) so im sulking and refusing to go out again so will now make them tomorrow afternoon instead.

God...this was a long post wasnt it!! That will teach me to leave it a week to update!

x Lots of love x